Idk wat to do

Hey guys, erica here, so on instagram, i posted a photo with numbers and questions you can ask me, and someone said #20 which was "whats ur one wish?" And i replied, " i wish that i could date the person i like, but she doesnt know it. And im already in a relationship so." And i really hope that lani doesnt see my comment on that photo or else. Im thinking about deleting it later so. Everythings been going ok, my boyfriend asked me to homwcoming and i wouldve felt bad if i said no so i said yes. Even though i really wish i could go with lani. Last night, i had the best dream ever. Lani and i were working on a project together, and i looked up at her to say something, but she was already staring at me. I was flustered and when i finally calmed down, we continued on with the project. Later on, when we finished or whatever, i looked at lani and she looked at me. We started slowly moving in towards each other, she closed her eyes and so did i. Then boom, we kissed. For a while too. God, that was the closest to heaven I've ever been. I wish that moment could've lasted forever. Literally. Then i woke up, and i was smiling this whole morning. My boyfriend asked me why i was so happy and i lied and told him i had a dream where we kissed and stuff. I hate having to do this. I want to break up with him, but he's helped me through too much, ugh. Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. I dont know what to do, I'm in too deep. Maybe after homecoming i can do something to help me. Idk